Saturday was spent being lazy, sleeping almost all day, and not being productive at all! Washington University sets up all these activities for freshmen so Saturday night was our dorm's floor dinner and then we all went to the Science Center in St. Louis (http://www.slsc.org). Washington University rented out the entire Science Center for all the freshmen. It cost us nothing and we got to see all the IMax movies, explore the whole museum, etc!
After we got back to the dorms (around 11 pm), the rest of the night was a weird roller coaster of emotions. Most people know that I was seeing a guy in Traverse City this past summer. As I left for college, we never had the "talk" (you know...the relationship talk). Once I got to college, I was confused where we stood, he was confused where we stood, and our relationship was slowly crumbling apart. I should have realized earlier in the summer that this wasn't going to last once school started, but when you like someone so much you tend to overlook anything negative about that person or your current relationship. As the first week of school started, I knew our break-up was inevitable yet this part of me inside was clinging to that last bit of hope.
As our break-up became official Saturday night (or early Sunday morning), I couldn't help but be devastated. I knew it was going to happen but that still can't prepare you for everything you are going to feel once it becomes a reality. I probably sat on my bed and cried for about 30 minutes straight with my roommate feeding me chocolate and my suitemate hugging me! A girl a floor below knew that we were headed for a break-up (we had discussed my whole "boy issue" the day before) and subsequently had ice cream waiting for me. After devouring a pint of ice cream, I realized just how much I loved everyone on my floor. I was obviously visibly upset that night and everyone on my floor gave me hugs and supported me. Furthermore, they all stated they were on "my side" (although my ex-boyfriend and I ended on good terms...no animosity whatsoever!) and that he was missing out.
Ironically, the rest of my night was amazing! I just laid on my suitemate's carpet and talked with a group of people for a few hours. We ended up having a big cuddle party at 3 AM and Joanna (suitemate), Bryan (lives on my floor), and I all crawled into Joanna's bed. Only when I was awoken around 5 AM with Bryan declaring he "didn't feel well and was going to be sick" (he had a little too much to drink), did I go back to my own bed.
Sunday consisted of chemistry almost the entire afternoon with the night consisting of episodes of my new favorite 90's TV show "My So-Called Life"!
xoxo jordan
Joanna, Veronica, and Myself with our "cool" glasses!
Kyle and I! He is probably one of my best guy friends here :)
Me with my "cool glasses"...College Nerd!
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